My Grandmother

This is my first blogpost and i am gonna blog abt my grandmother. She died on 27 oct 2007. At abt 11.32am, i received an sms frm my sis telling me that my grandmother was not able to make it alr. and at 11.48am, an sms came in again. this time, my grandma passed away. i was helping out at my uncle's stall at that point of time and my heart sank hell deep. i couldnt react i cant even cry. i left for home after a haircut. it was a cut that ah po(grandma in my dialect) pestered me for months. At the barber, i reflected how unfillial i was since i acknowledged my grandmother 17years and 10mths ago. I was a bully, a big bully. Despite all my misdeeds, ah po shown my with all her love, care, concern and everything no1 else on earth would do for me. After the hair cut, i hid in my room alone and cried my heart out.

At evening time, my family tree gathered its branches at my grandfather's house. We discussed about ah po's afterlife preparations. i tried to be strong. i held back my tears. we went out for dinner and every1 seemed fine. i knew i was affected but i just dun wan to add on the every1's burden. that night, when ah po's funeral photo arrived, i made sure i was the 1 who received it. i held it tight. that night, i washed my face in tears. why? why did this happen so suddenly?

Ah Po was my living superwoman and no1 could replace her. She was more than just a grandma. she was my idol, my fren. Being the eldest grandson, i was considered as her youngest son and true enough, she shown warmth of morning sunshine and patience of a nurse thoughout my childhood. Ah po, although i will not get to see you again, u will always be in my hearts for now and for ever. i want you as my grandma for all my next lives. I MISS YOU!

Life after your death was unbearable. i missed your cooking. i missed teasing you, i missed seeing u smile i missed your loved for me i missed your advices i missed those times i spent with you. i missed everyting you told me.

At the hospital, when i was alone with ah po, i promised her if i were to get a girlfren, i would get a fillial girlfriend. sum1 who wouldnt quarrel with my parents, sum1 who would take care of my family. i also promised her that i would not get the ear piercing that i longed for. Ah po, for you, i will stay strong and move on. i know you will be here with me, in my heart.

Yesterday was dong zhi, i did not eat any tang yuan cos i was not supposed to. i missed those time i made tang yuan with you. it felt weird, it felt bad. A piece of advice to every1 out there. Cherish the people around you while you can. Death strikes without warning.

Ah po, good bye....