random photos dun ask me why.

yesterday was my 1 mth aniversary with shu rong. i spent quite alot of time with her. it feels so good. we had heart to heart toks and ok. she understands me better than i understand myself. she was very open with me. so i was honest with her. haha i know u all dun understand but nvm. lol. she gave me this ji saw puzzle with a frame!!! i love this pic. alot!!! dam nice. Thank you for everything u have done for me!!! cos i reali love them and u as well!!! u are so sweet! sweet until i tink i will get diabetes soon. omg!

besides the fish, sr made a pouch for me! it has a pig on it and its hand sew. omg. she reali has the patience. i cant blog the pic today cos my bluetooth failed on me suddenly. she's dam sweet. she granted me my bdae wish. wat wish? for the 2 of us to know and for u guys to find out. haha u ppl will nv know. on top of this, i would like to thank all those present on my bdae. sy, kel, aloy, fel, eug n sr. and also those me made me the cards! including those present + jiun chyii, jasmine, hui qing, sweeting, ridwan and jermaine. thank you so much! i reali love those cards. they were dam nice cos they are all handmade as requested. ok. i wan to compliment this guy. EUgene Tan Teck Wei. i tell u, ur card has the ugliest handwritting on earth but its the most unique card on earth. dam nice and meaningful. i din expect to receive a card from u cos i tot u would have 4gtten it. but dammit i was wrong. horrible me. thank you lar bro. then my sec frens. yhih huua, samantha, weilin, jacqueline, zhiwei, benjamin, JEREMY and KARDIONO. why these 2 names in bold? i tell u. jeremy greet me happy bdae for 1 whole week starting on 21 feb. its lol but at least u made the effort to do it. and that kardiono well done. sms me early morning at 2.55am with his indo number. waolao. this kind of brothers where to find. for those that i missed saying thank you, i am reali sorry. i wan to thank every body. thank you so much!

ok. back to blogging. my bdae past. 18 alr. tink i have grown up. correct me if i am wrong. this year is different, sum1 left and sum1 came into my life. Shurong steamed fish for me on my bdae. dam nice. onli the firs mouth was abit weird. cos i haven eaten steam fish for reali long alr. like since my grandma pass away. i finished the fish. sr says its not nice and we fought over the fish. childish rite? now u know how childish my sr can get. but anyway, i onli gt the pic of the fish bones. cos its very nice!

Ok. End of exams? happy? NO. the night spoilt it. came home and quarrelled with my mum. kind of raised my voice at her and went straight to bath. dam sian. when i was bathing i feel unfillial. i shld have been struck by lightning for doing that but i duno y i did it. i came out frm the bathroom i din apologise. i talked to her and hoped that she understand. and i tink she did. Now i am feeling so bad. i duno y things would turn out like that suddenly. issit i changed? or issit she restrict too much? i duno.




My bdae is coming nxt week. i may be a boy of many words but i am definitely not a man with big dreams. there are 3 things i want in my life. 1st, i want my family to have long life and lead a healthy life. i lost 1 family member 3 mths and 26days ago. she was the most important person in my life. and i'm sorry to say i am a loser. i cant afford to lose any1 anymore. i am afraid of failure. Secondly, i wan shurong to be with me till the end of time. thirdly, i want freedom! may my wish come true....

im back frm thailand!

today is the 108th day since my grandma passed away. she appeared in my dreams. the settings were so familiar that i know i couldnt b wrong. i saw her. its reali her. i asked if she's back. she said no, she cant come back. i asked if she could visit me once a week for 2 hours? she tot abt it and replied me ok. how i wish this was not a dream. i wanted her to stay for good. i missed her so much. this is the second time she appeared in my dreams the first was not very blurish but this time round, its very clear. i knew its her. everyday i would pray in front of her altar for her to guide me along in life like wat she always does. finally, she appeared in my dreams last nite. i am glad. at least i know she heard me and she answered me. coincidentally, when i woke up from this dream at abt 5+am, my parents were about to leave for malaysia. so i gathered my lazy bones and bid them farewell. when i gt back to bed and lie down, there was a sudden uneasy feeling. i felt lost like nv before. the 3 closest ppl in my life since i was born are not around with me. my parents will be outstationed, my grandma left without even bidding farewell. but i was lucky. i met shurong, she calmed me down early this morning. i felt so guilty to disturb her but she said it was ok. she's very understanding. she's like my life support machine that never fails to show up when i nd help. thank you shurong.


Grandma, there is a limit to my intelligence but for u, i will work hard. i wan to prove to u that u din waste ur time appearing in my dream. and wherever u are, there is owaz a place for u in my heart. do drop by and visit me anytime. i miss u, ah po.

Let this picture speak the thousand words! this pic is taken at my house using acer crystal eye!

i love her

The back view of me and shu rong. i like this pic alot. its taken at ps by the way. when i held her hand, i knew i would nv go wrong. cos its gotta be her!!! she's the 1. nth else to add. just 4 words. i love SHU RONG!