im back frm thailand!

today is the 108th day since my grandma passed away. she appeared in my dreams. the settings were so familiar that i know i couldnt b wrong. i saw her. its reali her. i asked if she's back. she said no, she cant come back. i asked if she could visit me once a week for 2 hours? she tot abt it and replied me ok. how i wish this was not a dream. i wanted her to stay for good. i missed her so much. this is the second time she appeared in my dreams the first was not very blurish but this time round, its very clear. i knew its her. everyday i would pray in front of her altar for her to guide me along in life like wat she always does. finally, she appeared in my dreams last nite. i am glad. at least i know she heard me and she answered me. coincidentally, when i woke up from this dream at abt 5+am, my parents were about to leave for malaysia. so i gathered my lazy bones and bid them farewell. when i gt back to bed and lie down, there was a sudden uneasy feeling. i felt lost like nv before. the 3 closest ppl in my life since i was born are not around with me. my parents will be outstationed, my grandma left without even bidding farewell. but i was lucky. i met shurong, she calmed me down early this morning. i felt so guilty to disturb her but she said it was ok. she's very understanding. she's like my life support machine that never fails to show up when i nd help. thank you shurong.


Grandma, there is a limit to my intelligence but for u, i will work hard. i wan to prove to u that u din waste ur time appearing in my dream. and wherever u are, there is owaz a place for u in my heart. do drop by and visit me anytime. i miss u, ah po.